We are known to constantly second guess ourselves, distrust our own instincts, over analyze every word said (and unsaid)( Huh Dev?) not see our own worth, cut ourselves down as a joke, and never take a compliment.
It is not because I want to be that way, I truly do not.
I always fought not to be seen as a victim of my past, it is what it is, but I find myself in love with a truly amazing man and walls have came down, allowing him all the way in, and quite a bit of all these feelings are rushing back demanding they be faced and destroyed.
And I am doing it, not because I love him but because I love me. Because I deserve being loved by him, by others, but mostly by myself above all.
Thank you for being patient with me and my growth Maestre.