Being naked in water is my heaven. I could stay in the tub for hours and sometimes do!!!
It used to be my go to for comfort. When I got my own place, for the very first time I was able to just sit in the hot water in the dark and not have to deal with anything, I was hooked!!
When I became serious about kicking drugs, the bathtub was my safe spot, if I wanted to us, I took a hot bath, if I wanted to cry and end it all, I took a hot bath. It gave me the strength when I didn’t have it, but also- gave me the excuse of I am too busy (lazy) to relapse because I would have to get up, get dressed and go get something – screw that, I was naked already!!!
It is still my go to safe place when anxiety is kicking in or when I can’t sleep!!!
I was beyond elated when I moved into my new home and realized not only could I take a bath again but that I could fit in the tub!!!! Yeah me!!!
So I start out this day with a nice hot bath!!!!!
And enjoy every moment of it!!!